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Navratri Darshanam of Divine Mother of Cosmos

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I can’t elaborate. I got ‘awakening’ in March early this year. I have to thank my Gurujis and the Guru Parampara and the sages, saints, rishis and other Yogis of India for making this possible for me, a householder who is not a monk or serious religious practitioner. Only one clue I can give: Meditation or Mantra Japa combined with ritual prayers may have been the key apart from previous birth Karma. Yoga helps. Yoga means discipline.

Anyway, six months later for the first time the Mother Supreme today showed Her face to me in this auspicious second day of Navratri when I was chanting the Lalitha Sahasranama. Earlier She used to show me Her side view as in the temple, then Her lotus feet etc. This time Her beautiful ethereal face appeared. I want nothing more out of my life after this. Before Her I have had Varahi darshan and Ma Kali’s vishwaroop darshan. I was expecting Ma still I was at loss of words and started weeping right during my recitation. I am humbled is all I can say. I don’t count myself as a model bhaktha or anything. Her compassion is boundless. This morning I had sage Agastya in my vision. He appeared with a flowing beard and many tiers of hair knotted top on his crown. I keep praying to Him. Err… I offer filter coffee south Indian style to my Gods and Goddesses. Today sure enough, He appeared in my living, seemed to take a sip of coffee from a cup and then He replaced the cup on the teapoy! Stunned. Again I was at loss of words. It was later that I was thanking Him!

I am no expert or pro. Not the podcasting type or broadcasting type although I share things with family and closest of friends. TODAY IS THE DAY OF MY LIFE. THIS IS WHAT I WAS BORN FOR. I can tell anyone, respect people not money or status, cultivate love and live a clear, clean, straight life. Pray sincerely. Don’t sell your soul. You don’t have to be political correct – to maintain your position in the books. Practise soul honesty. Be generous and helpful to others in whatever way you can.

My early life showed no indication of what was coming my way. I did one thing though: keep up my faith. Believed in universal goodness. However I also think, timely dealing with Adharma is also our responsibility. I am still in the kg level. Awakening is NOT Enlightenment. Upto the level of graduation in the university of cosmos, its a long, long, long way ahead.

But i feel with my Lalitha Maha Tripura Sundari’s heart melting, my birth purpose is already achieved! She showed up as Sri Vidya Gurus (various gurus) in my puja during Lalitha Sahasranama chanting over last few months. Om Shri Matre Namaha! Happy Navratri, celebration of womanhood without exclusions.

I am saying this because today the second day of Navratri is that of Brahmacharini, the spinster form of Ma Durga. One of the Dasa Maha Vidyas is Ma Dhumavathi, the old widow. Hindu Dharma excludes nobody. Inclusivity is what defines humanity. But of course, where distinction has to be made for the benefit of humanity, practise logic unabashedly! That’s what Krishna says!

Om Shri Matre Namaha! Happy Navratri to all!

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I was watching this you tube video of Garba dance. It was sickening to learn that the young people of Gujarat were administering themselves with IV fluids to bolster energy for the Garba dance rituals during Navratri.I have once attended Garba dance for Navratri in Mumbai. Its simply electrifying atmosphere. Being a south Indian, I could not manage dancing at that tempo and with their zest and zeal for even 10-15 min. I gave up. But that was the one and only Navratri I shut my home and I swore never to do it again. I felt bad for taking a vacation during Navratri. This was over 20 years back. But the other state people were carrying on past midnight almost.

Now years later I think about the banality of it all. The purpose of Navratri is awakenign the Shakthi, the divine feminine power in you. It is literally Shakthi awakening period for us women. I like the Durga Pujas held in Bengal and in general in east INdia. Maharashtra and Gujarat seem more into empty celebrations than piety. Then again I should not underestimate their faith because I have also observed my north Indian neighbours in Doha being very pious and carrying out pujas very sincerely in the day. Nobody can fast like our north Indian behens. Most of the days of an year they are fasting for this or that. However, Evenings of Navratri/Diwali were another story! Total glam and glitz and no religious aspect at all! I am low key south Indian. I still don’t approve of this mehendi and sangeet wedding dance sequence. And they have even added a liquor bar to the reception halls. We too have haldi kumkum chandan ceremony as pre-nuptials in the south that we call ‘nalangu.’ But it is a homely affair mostly with family and closest friends. We too have mehendi and again it is a family affair. The perspective seems to be lost with louder celebrations, to me at least. The sacrosanct Vedic wedding is now cut short and westernized with comperes taking over the management of the event. Hindu marriages, I mean the north Indian weddings, seem so banal to me. The weddings seem to be only for showing off the designer lehengas and diamond jewelry!

Navratri Garba is fine but obscenity and vulgarity is not. The feminine energy, the She energy we have in the cosmos will be peaking at this point of time. To capitalize this energy, we must celebrate womanhood in all forms with no exceptions. Ma Lakshmi, Durga and Saraswathi are said to be stepping into every home. How should we stay tuned then. Increased commercialization of Hindu festivals is a worrying trend. Of late, the religious perspective is getting lost with showbiz coming to characterize the pujas which were once upon a time considered sacred and private homely affairs and/or quiet community celebrations.

Om Shri Matre Namaha. Happy Navratri. May common sense prevail. May the Feminine Energy, the She Energy peak and shine in each and everyone of us women.

Can’t find a better way to close this post.

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Hanuman Chalisa saved the Flydubai Israel flight.

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Hanuman Chalisa stated the speed of light millennia earlier before the west came with its claim on calculating it. Hanuman is a chiranjeevi who is believed to be on earth until today. If you want to verify Hanuman chalisa’s power, take a picture of Hanumanji, chant Hanuman chalisa for 40 days straight offering him neivedyam. LIfe change will be immediate. This is for believers. So for his ardent devotees, Hanuman ji waits by hand.

No wonder Smit Machchar, the Indian pilot who saved the Flydubai flight to Israel from being crashed, says he chanted Hanuman Chalisa in the most critical time as he lay there in the cockpit bleeding life blood as a passenger took over the controls of the flight. Smit was sharp enough to open the cockpit door in crucial moment that made the passengers overpower the islamic terrorist pilot.

HYPOCRISY OF THE WEST & AL JAZE8RA

Not a single western media report mentioned the nationality of the brave pilot who kicked open the cockpit door in his given condition, making it possible for some air passengers to rescue the flight. Kudos to the plumber who took over the flight safe-landing it. The word ‘Indian’ seems to have been carefully avoided.

However the Israeli PM Netanyahu and the UAE gave due credits to the Indian pilot mentioning his origins.

Al Jaze8ra, the Qatar based news agency as usual cut the part of ‘Hanuman chalisa’ from the Indian pilot’s video call conversation with PM Modi in their news report. Out and out an islamic terror mouthpiece, this is a very dangerous news organization in the entire world.

Let us leave it at that. Nowadays I don’t feel like dwelling on these negative matters for long. There may be a marked difference in my blogging style in last 1-2 years. Especially in last 6 months.

Well, all is well that ends well. Long Live Israel. Love and respect from India.

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Pitru Paksha experiences.

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Pitru Paksha is on. Very important phase of the Hindu calendar year when we believe pitrus come down for food and water. Their blessings are very important to us. These 15 days-1 month (the month of Purattasi in Tamil that includes Pitru paksha 2 weeks and Navaratri 2 weeks and is considered most auspicious for Lord Balaji/Venkateswara of Tirumala-Tirupathi) may be considered holiest during which even those hindus with worst non vegetarian food habits go totally vegetarian. This 1 month is that sacred for us Hindus.

For me, this year is special as it is my debutante awakening year! My father-in-law passed away in 2002 september end. I am sighting him since this August – after a gap of 24 years. His face is appearing in my puja. My chithi who was more a mother to me than my biological mom, passed away this march. I was in the US then and I missed being with her when she left. But strangely I never felt like missing her. It was the time I was ‘awakening.’ I knew sooner or later I would catch up with her. Yesterday, my cousin did ‘go dhaan’ for her sake and I went to our old house in Mylapore. I was thinking of my chithi. Compared to the times when she was around, I don’t feel affection or love for her now. I do a little, but I recognize the noble soul that she was. She was mother to a lot of cousins and held the family together. Such a spiritual lady who suffered a lot in life. Her broadmindedness and her generous nature and love and affection for one and all is something you can never see in this generation. I reckon now that kind spirited soul with more respect and awe and I am grateful that I was raised by this woman who got me married and took care of me when I delivered. Last morning in her house, she gave me darshan sitting in a single sofa settie and smiling at me. In fact I was taken by surprise as she she joined her hands for me in ‘namaste’ gesture. I am still wondering what that was for. It was seeing her that made me emotional. And thinking that I would never be able to talk to her again in this lifetime is what saddens me. She is the reason for my intense pujas. She and my chithappa started many for me. The very Lalitha and Saraswathi that sit in my puja got gifted by them. Even the Tanjore painting of baby Krishna was their gift.

My reality is totally changed. Ma Lalitha Maha Tripura Sundari becomes very happy if we recite any mantra or shloka for Her sincerely. When our devtas are pleased, they can give us divine darshans.

Keep praying is all I can say. Never lose hope. And try to be a decent humanbeing. Saw this you tube video by Shri Shri Ravishankar guruji where he says, only 10% of material world as we know and see and believe to be the reality is actually reality. Rest 90% reality is not visible to naked eyes. I haven’t fully listened to this video. Our afterlife is even more important than the fake life we live in the illusory world of Maya currently. For our own sake, we need to be good and decent humanbeing.

Recognize the dark souls among living humanbeings who are totally negative and sabotaging by character and keep away. Cut chords without a second thought. That can stop you from being engaged with them for multiple karmic birth cycles. Even if they provoke don’t respond or react. Once you start the chain, the cycle will keep going on. If you want to end a toxic relationship with this birth/janam, just put it to a decisive end and DO NOT ENGAGE. It is very important not to carry forward hatred, jealousy, vengeance, anger, frustration, rage, despair, resentment, regret and sorrow with us.

Finally, definitely honouring our pitrus in the pitru paksha is important. But more important is taking care of the elderly parents and in-laws when they are still around. How many have old people in their homes. How many visit regularly their aged parents and in laws. How many even spend time with them. So far as I have seen, pitrus receive more attention during this Mahalaya paksha that culminates in Mahalaya Amavasya (this year it is 10th saturday october) than what they receive when they’re physically around. I can understand the motive: not to get the pitru dosha or pitru curse. That alone is a reason for most these days to observe pitru paksha and stick to vegetarian food habits for one month (in the case of non vegetarians).

Om Shri Matre Namaha: Salutations to our Universal Divine Mother for Her blessings. Until this year, I had heard from podcasts, from satsangs, read from books etc., but Ma gives me experiences through visions that tally with information i have garnered through all these years. Om Shri Matre Namaha. Salutations to Ma Lalitha Maha Tripura Sundari, the ruler of the multiverse who is with my all 24 hours a day, 365 days an year. She is my protector and saviour forever taking care of me, Her daughter. With Her by my side, I go on and on.

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Next step in my spiritual journey.

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A few days back, hit a new milestone. Now sometimes whoever I am conversing with, I can see their Antar Atma or the Shukshma Atma (soul) in my visions (when I close my eyes for a second) (this is no imagination or dream or hallucination; its like a superimposed vision). Not always. Suppose I see their soul once, it does not mean I have to spot it everytime I see them. And I don’t keep seeing everyone’s soul. Just a selected few. First I was confused. Thank god, I am in touch with someone who is ‘awakened’ and who is a follower of Ramana Maharishi. He crossed these spiritual milestones months back. Looks like my own spiritual growth is modeled on his way of evolvement. I got a few tips on how to remember and identify whose soul is which one!

Besides messages and visions from deities, I view the soul thing as a milestone in my spiritual journey. All these things I never bargained for. I am ritualistic but am very sincere in my pujas. Just a housewife/mother/grandma here. Nothing extraordinary. Something changed in last couple of years when I started losing interest in everything. I am playing along my role in family life/material world that’s all. I still browse online for shopping for saris; i still want to go on tours; i still want to enjoy life; but the earlier crushing interest in things is gone. Now its more like an attempt to stay normal and regular like others around me.

I am omitting my deity darshans from the post. You take one step forward, Divine Mother takes two steps towards you. That’s what I can say.

Guru’s advice: MOVE ON MOVE, DON’T EVEN PAUSE HERE OR TAKE A LOOK!

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Himalayan Tragedy.

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Literally. Nepal tragedy is heartwrenching. But when I see that those returning from Kailash Yatra have perished in bunches, I wonder if they were taken into His bosom by Lord Shiva. Nowadays that’s how my mind works. Normally I don’t like Isha/Jaggi Vasudev. But I am surprised he does not seem to share my view, given the Yogi he is. But then you can’t speak the heart’s truth when you hold responsibility in your hands. He who talks so much about death and afterlife seems to be shedding some tears. The end may have been brutal – but imagine not returning from Mount Kailash. (Already spotted a podcast in you tube where a psyche was talking about a portal opening in Gyriong port in Tibet-Nepal border; she attributes even aircrash sites etc., to portals). What more can a Hindu hope for. Of course hundreds or perhaps thousands of other civilians from all walks of life have lost their lives. Nobody has exact statistics. I don’t mean to sound insensitive. I can understand how the bereaving families must feel right now. The pilgrims stood no chance. Probably they were at Tibet-Nepal border immigration checking back into Nepal after their Kailash Manasarovar yatra/Kailash Parikrama.. Most Indian tourists have perished while on pilgrimage to Nepal. Now Jaggi Vasudev must know what it is to go against nature in a massive way. Why should a glacier suddenly collapse. How much tourist traffic the Himalayan kingdom is handling. There are mountaineers heading to scale world’s highest peaks such as the Everest, the Anna Purna etc. Then there are millions of tourists from India on pilgrimage to Nepal. A good percentage of Indian pilgrims also head to Mount Kailash via Tibet border. In fact even from Tamil Nadu, hundreds have gone missing on their return journey from Kailash, the toughest trek on earth. But personally I think that’s a poetic way to go. Imagine having a darshan of the Kailash and then not returning home. Jaggi must know.

At the same time I saw this another spiritual group headed by Desa Mangairkarasi, a prodigy of late Shri Kripa Nanda Variar, escaping the tragedy but stuck in the Kailash parikrama in Tibet/Nepal border. May the pilgrims from Tamil Nadu/India return safe.

Isha group seems to have perished totally. No news about them. Of these almost 100% the pilgrims are foreigners from the US and Australia and UK and dozen other countries who were on Kailash Yatra. Obviously they must be Isha followers and Shiva bhakths.

There is so much of unwanted activities going on in the Himalayan ranges. Himalayas may be the tallest mountain range in the world but they are the youngest geologically speaking. The Himalayas that were undersea mountain ranges, erupted out of a natural catastrophe like when two tectonic plates collided. Interestingly I have heard a Hindu philosopher speak of how there is no mention of Himalayas in the most ancient Hindu texts or puranas that must have been passed on from another plane of time, by whatsoever means. So you don’t have to be a rocket scientist to understand how seismically sensitive this zone must be. Already Nepal has seen devastating earthquakes. More vehicular traffic and pollution and construction activities and roads and footfalls mean, Himalayan glaciers melting real superfast in this global warming age. We have seen monsoon floods wrecking havoc in Kedarnath in India on the Himalayas exactly for the same reasons. This is why I am AGAINST THE CHAR DHAM PROJECT in India drilling the Himalayas. I don’t need to worship Shiva by drilling a hole into His Himalayan abode. Already millions are going on pilgrimage to Kedarnath, Amarnath, Gangotri, Gomukh etc., every year. The helicopter services have made every Hindu aspire to go to the Himalayas. The Char dham is now in every HIndu’s bucket list. But can you imagine what a damage millions of footfalls, helicopter services, construction activities etc., can do to the Himalayan glaciers. Even Ganga runs the risk of running dry at this rate. Now Jaggi Vasudev, can you understand why I hate you for taking over the Elephant territory at the foot of the Velaingiri Hills in Tamil Nadu for your Ashram. The Shiva I know or the Shiva I can comprehend may want the elephants roaming there not your mega Shiv Ratri hungamas. I can never understand this kind of piety sorry. I can never understand how you can save Hindu Dharma hurting environment and damaging nature. Those like Ramakrishna Paramahamsa, Swami Vivekananda, Shirdi Sai Baba, Ramana Maharishi, Paramahamsa Yogananda etc., etc.. did quiet but effective service to Hindu Dharma WITHOUT DAMAGING ANYTHING/ANYONE. Their yeomen service to Dharma stands out recognized even today and they have millions of followers around the world without having to seek attention. When I saw acres cleared for parking space etc., in Isha near Coimbatore, I thought about the loss of green cover. You cannot plant Teak trees everywhere and call it ‘Kaveri calling.’ That is damage control. Why do we have sthala vrkshas in our temples. Every Hindu temple in India has a Stala Vrksha – it means it houses a native tree (vrksha) right from THAT exact geographic spot. GEOTAG by ancient Hindus practised for thousands of years right in our places of worship – our temples. For example, in Kapaleeshwara temple in Mylapore, it is Punnai maram (laughing tree) that is the sthala vrksha. This sthala vrksha temple culture even sheds a glimpse into our native history. Once upon a time, Mylapore was a garden or forest of laughing trees (punnai maram). That is how our Hindu ancestors saved and preserved each and every single native fauna of ours. Today in India we are ecologically rich and diverse even after such a huge environmental degradation, because of our Hindu ancestors who thought of every little thing including digging up a tank in front of every single temple they constructed. These water tanks are the lungs of our villages and towns and cities, after centuries and centuries and also ground water charging points on monsoons. You cannot substitute the Stala vrksha native trees with Teak trees everywhere Jaggi especially in fertile river banks. Did you ever think of where the elephants will go once they get down from the Velliangiri hills. You have taken over their corridor so they must be rerouting their millennia old traditional survival and habitational routes. Shiva is first that elephant. Shiva is first that forest cover. Shiva is first that Velaingiri mountain itself. Shiva is the very ground where your visitors park their cars. Well, that is my understanding of Shiva.

Once upon a time I used to like Isha. Now I think its vulgar.

This is why I decided not to go on Char dham yatra ever. I can worship Shiva from right where I am. If I cannot see Him in my heart first, how can I hope to see Him in Mount Kailash.

When Raja Raja Chola built the Brahadeshwara temple over 1000 years back in Thanjavur (Tanjore) Kaveri delta, we Indians could still afford the deforestation. Acres of forested lands were cleared by our kings to build the most ancient 2000 year plus old Hindu temples that still proudly stand today in south India. (In north of course they were razed by the islamic invaders). But all that was eons back. Indian population remained optimal in those times. Monsoons were bountiful. Nature was respected and nurtured. There was no environmental degradation to alarming degrees obviously. When did we begin to celebrate Diwali. Fireworks were part of celebrations when Ram returned to Ayodhya with Seetha from when we started celebrating Diwali. So was dynamite/gunpowder used in fireworks through centuries in India? Never. Something organic was being used in the manufacture of our fire crackers which had no hazardous chemical content in them. Modern man has given every ritual a horrible twist and made it worst and regrettable. Joyous spirited festivals have been reduced to crass commercial gala events.

Nepal is bracing for more landslides and floodings in near future. For the locals this must be nightmare. For foreigners trapped in the landlocked nation, it can be traumatic. Not to mention the state of mind of their loved ones back home worrying about their safety – if at all they have survived.

We used to think about Nepal pilgrimage often. But my civil engineer husband would say, Nepal was poor when it came to safety standards. It would be a blessing to die there in a flash – and that is what I think about the Isha pilgrims who perished wholly on their return from Kailash darshan. But if you are wounded and stuck in Nepal hospital, that can be real horrendous situation. It is because of his practical reasoning that many times we dropped our plans to pack our bags to Kathmandu. Pashupathi Nath temple is in my bucket list. In fact we never anticipated the Gulf war that saw us retire from Doha. Otherwise in June/July we were thinking of Nepal. But my husband refused to allow me to book in advance. Nepal and Sri Lanka – he is not confident about. India is quick on reflex even if we are a third world nation. Our communication network and rescue ops etc., can bring quick relief even is disaster strikes (god forbid). In general we remain in preparedness most of the times for any eventually. We are shockproof in India. This is the advantage of belonging with a strong big nation. We have to act on warfooting basis during crises like the Nepal floods and we have to have access to resources, rescue op personnel, medical teams, food catering etc., with everything going on at the same time. We personally evaluate all these things and always rate India as a safe country that way. We don’t feel that way about most countries we have toured. In case of any emergency, things can freeze in most countries with inaction/inadequacy in many departments. Nepal sadly we rate as one such a vulnerable nation. But it is their destiny, understandable, being a landlocked Himalayan nation, at the mercy of the icy glaciers and prone to earthquakes caused by tectonic shifts. Most Nepalese factor in these life risks – as I understood from knowing them from our 20 year residence in Qatar where they constitute semi skilled workforce. Good workers. In fact every year I used to receive prasad from Pashupathi Nath mandir in Nepal. This year someone got us even a Rudhraksh mala from Nepal.

Dear Tourists/Hindu pilgrims: STICK TO BEATEN TRACKS. Don’t open new avenues. Kailash is best left free. So must be Amarnath. Kedarnath and Badrinath must be accessible by minimum land transport and mostly by foot- and not by helicopter or char dham tunnel presently under construction. Even this tunnel caved in, ending in tragedy remember. Don’t disturb nature – and if you do, be prepared to pay a heavy price. Don’t regularize Kailash yatra, Amarnath yatra, Vaishnodevi Yatra. All these must be reserved for the really motivated and physically dexterous. Rest of us have to satisfy ourselves with Kashi, Hardwar, Hrishikesh, what to do.

YOU SAVE HIMALAYAS/KAILASH/KEDARNATH/AMARNATH/VAISHNO DEVI/GOMUKH/GANGOTRI ETC., ETC., BY NOT GOING THERE, GOT IT?

Finally Shiva gave His piece of mind to Jaggi Vasudev. But what a brutal lesson was that.

Meanwhile Arnab:

(I decided to add the Arnab video in the last minute because interestingly there is quite some China traffic to my blog! Really surprised.So decided to entertain my chinese readers.)

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When Ma Kali enters your body for a min…

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Confused and dazed since crossing over to the 4th dimension in last 3 months; having my reality changed overnight; imagine Divine Mother to who nothing matters other than showing me all the time She is there for me…

Divine Grace chooses you, not the other way. I have not even done Kali sadhana. I have done two posts on how Ma Kali has made an appearance in my life. Last night was as usual. Woke up midnight to use the washroom. REturning back to bed, was surprised to note that I had been chanting Kali Gayatri unconsciously. I don’t know for how many minutes or how long I did that.I picked those two verses from You tube honestly more than a couple of years back. Those 2 lines stuck to my mind.

I recalled the last time I chanted Kali Gayatri in front of Badra Kali, in the Prathyangira temple at Sholinganallur (OMR-ECR connecting road), Chennai. And Ma Kali ended up giving me Vishwaroopa darshan in my vision. So now I made a silent plea to Her to stall (yes) as it was midnight, just in case She wanted to come to me. Sleeping is difficult for me these days as the moment I close my eyes, I am flooded with visions. I have to tire myself out and my eyes have to shut in sleep on their own. This is how I am going to sleep in last 3 months. Awakening is a painful experience. Its not at all cakewalk. I tried the same trick of trying to tire myself out to go back to sleep. Just that moment I knew that Divine Ma Kali entered my body perhaps for a minute or so. I have earlier heard of Ma Varahi entering a friend’s friend’s body in similar fashion – in daytime, in a temple. I just knew Ma was within me. It was like I had sleep paralysis. Suddenly I could not move a muscle. The sensation that coursed through my body I cannot put to words. But it was a good, indescribable sensation. Energy flow. Like a current is passing through your entire body or some sweet warmth is spreading head to foot. At that moment only a few words came to my mind; MA PARDON ME OF ALL MY SINS; BLESS EVERYONE. I had only that much time – very brief time in fact that lasted under 1 minute. In moments Ma Kali left me as quietly as She came. I felt normal then but thinking of Her grace, I feel like crying now. What did I do to deserve Her grace. I was not even Her devotee.

Not only Ma Kali, in the last 2 weeks since I got into this emotional turmoil, Ma Lalitha too showed me Her presence within me but I don’t want to share that experience here. It is like, Divine Mother in whateve way wants to show me that SHE HAS NOT ABANDONED ME even if the world may seem to have. I have nothing more to lose, nothing more to fear.

I don’t care about the obstacles i face in my spiritual path.. I am willing to wait how many janams it may take me to reach the lotus feet of My Divine Mother. She has seen me up until this. She will see me through I know now and I don’t have to think twice on that. I am human after all and I may continue to accumulate some karma good and bad, knowingly and unknowingly. Its all part and parcel of the game called Maya. But I am learning every single day.

Ma Kali is protecting me and stays very close to me ALL THE TIME. I have no words to describe how grateful I feel and how blessed I feel for Her presence in my life. Its a GIFT. No wonder She cut some cords to eliminate negativity from my life – and for Her it doesn’t matter which/what position they occupy in my life before She severs the cord; disrespect/betrayal on anyone’s part when it comes to me can result in Her cutting the cord neat and clean. I understand now wholly what transpired in last two weeks. Its HER handiwork no doubt!

I didn’t remove some posts from my blog because I didn’t want to HIDE OR ESCAPE THE MEMORY OF ANYTHING. Its also a mirror to my face to show how much I have changed with time. Humans judge you looking at your superficial body and lifestyle and YOUR PAST. YOUR PAST IS OVER. YOUR PAST IS NOT YOUR PRESENT OR FUTURE. AMMA NEVER MAKES THAT MISTAKE OF MISJUDGING YOU. MA LALITHA KNOWS ME FROM MY PREVIOUS BIRTHS AND SHE KNOWS MY HEART IN THIS PRESENT BIRTH. That’s what finally matters. Soul honesty is very important to me and apparently Amma likes that in me. To be able to live with your past and have no shame about it is itself a virtue. Not that I have done anything condemnable. I learnt about Srividya Upasana ONLY by 2020. Before that I have enjoyed life with my girlfriends and have downed even a glass of wine or vodka on rarest occasions. Unabashedly material girl. Why hide it. What matters is how you live your life once you take up Upasana. I took mine only 4 years back. After that I am living a celibate life and I am a vegetarian anyway from birth. I gave up cakes and croissants that I thought were few luxuries that life offered me. Honestly after awakening I realize, all that doesn’t matter at all. I may not be a pro, but I think you can breach that line to 4th dimension by crossing some mental barriers such as caste, community, language, religion etc., and by reckoning that your atma has no memory, no mind, no sex, nothing. Shedding your prejudices is a crucial step forward. You have to leave negativity such as jealousy and hatred behind. For me, its been a learning experience for years now. I benefited from numerous online gurus who shaped and chiseled my mind day by day.

To what lengths my Lalitha and my Ma Kali have gone in last 2 weeks to show me that divine grace is with me… I lost my biological mother early in life. Now I have Divine Mother showing me every step, every minute that She is with me.

Life has never been fair to me. That’s all right. In this janam it is my curse to be misunderstood. I accept wholly my karma and I forgive those who erred me and prefer to forget and move on. I don’t stagnate. There is no place for negativity in my mind. As Gandhi said, I shall not allow my mind to become dustbin to store hatred and negativity. I WILL NOT ALLOW ANYONE TO WALK OVER MY MIND WITH THEIR DIRTY FEET. I CHOOSE POSITIVITY; I CHOOSE OPEN MINDEDNESS; I CHOOSE SOUL HONESTY; I CHOOSE MY MA LALITHA/KALI/MOOKAMBIKA. Period. It is my heart and soul that got me even to this threshold. I will not back down now.

Jai Ma Kali! Jai Ma Lalitha! Om Shri Matre Namaha!

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My first divine experience with Ma Kali(gambal)

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On ‘awakening’ i was talking to a high vibration friend who was enjoying Kali Tandav. After talking to her, immediately I felt Kali vibrations even though we did not discuss anything on Kali Ma. That night my experience was intense and I was still scared of this fierce version of Amma. So I called my guru who asked me to repeat the mantra for Ma Lalitha Maha Tripura Sundari and try to go to sleep. I did it and achieved the result. I also asked Amma/cosmos to go a bit slow with me. I was still new here taking baby steps. This was in the US.

After 2 weeks I boarded flight to India. In the flight I saw my flat and someone locking the door. The identity was blurred. I saw Kali Ma slowly twirling with Her hair loose and falling way down right in my living room. This vision I had in the flight a couple of hours before landing. No face, only the blurred vision. I snapped out of the vision and opened my eyes. I noted the time.

Landed in Chennai. Went home after months. Left India last October and boarded flight to the US in january from Doha. My husband said, he was planning to go to Kaligambal temple that week and immediately I understood why I envisioned Kali in my home. She was there when I arrived. It was news to me that my hubby wanted to go to the temple. After a few days he called me to the temple but I said I was still too tired and jet lagged. So he went on his own one early morning to have darshan of Kaligambal. Before he left I closed my eyes and had vision of Ma Kali already as She is in Kaligambal temple -petite and almost like Durga-Lakshmi, not too fierce like in north. I told him, I don’t have to go to the temple as She already gave me darshan.

I also asked him what time he left for airport to pick me up the day I arrived. The door lock time coincided with my vision time in flight. It was my mother in law who had locked the door after he left to pick me up.

From the temple, my hubby came back home around 8.30 am and gave us the prasad. I closed my eyes. I had the vision of the inner sanctum door of the temple. I have been here before. Before Kali Ma appeared, an agora rupa appeared. Looked like spider man to me hahaha. Must be the gatekeepers to check me out. After that the sannidhanam was in my vision with the small doors swinging open, but Kali Ma did not appear very crystal clear. I got the idea and a faint glimpse that’s all. I was also taken around the prahara of the temple as if in pradakshina (circumambulation). I got stunned by the experience.

Shared with my guru and a few believers and high vibration friends.

After growing out of fear for Ma Kali, I started enjoying Her roop, Her darshan and Her grace. I think this is also Ma Lalitha’s prescription for me to remove the fear component the fear component from my psyche.

Ma Kali is the most misunderstood Mother Goddess as She dons a skull mala or garland of human skulls. The skulls are representative of human ego or headweight crushed and not actual human skulls. Everything in Hindu dharma has a deeper meaning. Islamists and church deliberately misinterpret the real substance about our deities. When Ma Kali arrives, She first crushes your big ego or headweight and thus removes a major obstacle in your spiritual path. She burns your excessive pride, greed, alter ego everything and grounds you thoroughly. Its a humbling experience, enjoying the bliss of Ma Kali’s energy. Ma Kali’s grace. Ma Lalitha Tripura Sundari’s divine grace, what more can I say.

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My second Ma Kali experience.

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Was at my friend’s place for 3 days. On 4th june, my friends called me to Maha Prathyangira temple in Sholinganallur. As it houses Varahi, I was all the more thrilled. Never planned this temple visit. It just fell on my lap. It was clear, I got the call. Performed archana in this famous temple for both Prathyangira mata and Varahi mata. Then we went to Badra Kali’s sannidhanam. My friends and I sat in the front of the deity but at a distance, a little away from the sanctum. I recited aloud the short Durga Sapthashloki from Devi Mahatmyam. Then within my mind I chanted the Kali Gayathri 5 times and closed my eyes. My vision immediately filled with burning fire like scene and then it dissolved to a white snow like lingam small in size. Then out of nowhere emerged Kali Mata, tall and huge like some 2 storeys tall, with her tongue out. Normally, had I not been a Shakthi Upasaki or even after being one just a month or so back, I would have gotten scared. This time with Ma in pitch black and with her eyes gleaming, I had no fear in me. I know and have been told She is such a lovely energy. I lapped up Her into my system that’s all. I know I am one in a million to be shown Her divine grace like this. I thanked Her for Her benevolence because I always think I lack depth in bhakthi, i am not that devoted, and I am not the perfect upasaki or whatever. Yet She graced me with Her supreme darshan. I felt normal basking in this divine bliss – not overtly euphoric or too sentimental. It seemed so natural to me. It lasted for about a minute and I got a closeup too. I asked for Her forgiveness for the mistakes and sins I have committed knowingly and unknowingly. I asked Her to give Her blessings to one and all, not just to my family. I thanked Her again for Her divine Grace. I really didn’t even know whether I deserved it or not. Anyway She knows better and She has access to my Karmic records. I came out of the moment. I shared the experience with my friends who are very pious and who believe in me and who never doubted a word of what I told them. I am glad to have them in my life. Not a sarcastic comment or cracking jokes or poking fun.

I sent a message to my Guru. NO I HAVE NOT DONE KALI SADHANA. I am though a Shakthi Upasaki.

I shared the experience with one more high vibrational friend who also has been having divine darshans for years now. She encouraged me and asked me to enjoy the divine bliss and asked me to share the vibes/experiences with only true believers. Another friend asked me to record it to posterity. Many Upasakas coming in the future may want to know and they must have the benefit, she said. So I have decided to selectively record here some of my Divine experiences.

These experiences of mine are not faked; they are not a lie; they are not my hallucination; they are not my dreams; i am not under any medication other than regular ones for my lifestyle conditions; these are REAL ACTUAL VISIONS that I am having. I have no need to convince anyone of anything. I leave it to people to believe what they want to.

My ‘awakening’ began slowly in January itself in Doha. I realized it only as it came out fully in the open by february- march in Arizona, US. I am back in India now. The awakening has a profound effect on me that I cannot describe to anyone.

Kodi Pranaams to Ma Lalitha for choosing me in this noble mission in this janam of mine. Again I don’t even know whether I deserve this spiritual promotion. I never thought much about my bhakthi or whatever. It feels strange belonging with the cosmos. I am just taking my baby steps right now.

Closing this post with Devi Aparadha Kshamapana stotra by shri Adi Shankara – looks like he composed it just for me.

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When universe responds to you in the same frequency.

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FROM THE THIRD TO THE FOURTH, FIFTH, SIXTH & MORE DIMENSIONS AHOYYYY!

This post was penned in Arizona, US on 20th evening. I didn’t realize that it was already 21st april in India, the day of Adi Shankara Jayanthi. Adi Shankara, the first and foremost of the Shankaracharyas who established the Hindu maths across India is believed to have lived in the 8th century CE. Its the date put in by the British historians. However our ancestors believe he lived well before the birth of Christ by citing how river Poorna on banks of which he lived, shifted course with time. In those early centuries, Shankara even established a mutt in Sri Nagar that stands until today. He spread the Advaitha philosophy – the oneness we all seek already expounded by our holy scriptures such as the Vedas and Upanishads. Its no coincidence that on his jayanthi or birth anniversary as per Hindu calender that I wrote this piece. This is also his work as everyday I invoke him in my prayers/salutations to the lineage of gurus/guru parampara of India, the established scholarly tree of Dharmic Hindu philosophy.

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DEITIES/IDOLS ARE NOTHING BUT ENERGY MANIFESTATIONS.

ENERGIES ARE REAL, WHICHEVER FORM. CALL THEM KRISHNA, SHIVA, SHAKTHI, GANESHA, SKANDA OR HANUMAN WHATEVER YOU FANCY.

DON’T JUDGE OTHERS CALLING THEM PAGANS. THEY ARE THAT NOT WITHOUT A PURPOSE – BE IT THE EGYPTIANS OR GREEKS OR HINDUS. OUR HINDU ANCESTORS WISELY HID THE PORTALS TO COSMOS IN OUR DEITIES/IDOLS, (SANSKRIT) MANTRAS, RITUALS, SCRIPTURE, PILGRIMAGE PLACES INCLUDING SHRINES & RIVERS & MOUNTAINS, OUR TEMPLES ETC., THAT ARE ACCESSIBLE ONLY TO SELECT FEW. THIS IS TO DENY ACCESS TO THOSE WITH MAL INTENTIONS. YOU THINK WE ARE FOOLS TO WORSHIP TREES AND RIVERS AND MOUNTAINS AND STONE IDOLS FOR 10,000 YEARS. ITS YOUR LOSS IF YOUR FAITH IS BASED ON DENIAL. UNLESS THE MIND IS STILL/QUIET, YOU CANNOT FIND THE KEY TO THE COSMOS. MEDITATION, THE DISCIPLINE OF YOGA, BREATHING TECHNIQUES LIKE PRANAYAMA, KRIYA YOGA, VIPASANA MEDITATION ETC., ARE JUST A FEW WAYS TO QUICKEN YOUR SPIRITUAL JOURNEY. BUT BEFORE YOU EMBARK ON THIS LONG LONEL;Y ROAD, ENSURE YOU HAVE A SUPER STRONG AND BOLD AND BRAVE MIND RID OF ALL FEARS. TRUST IN THE ONE BRAHMAM(N).

So believe me, nothing is a waste: not the Shiva smiling down upon you from the calendar on the wall. Not the Krishna idol or the Ganesha you picked from tuck shop for decorative purposes. Everything is an energy field. Only, you can detect the energy when your frequency one day corresponds with theirs. They are all there believe me. India is a blessed nation. Bharata is country of Gods and Goddesses. God bless the world and entire humanity and all living beings flora or fauna or the lesser lives.

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Most of us don’t believe this is possible, until it happens to us. But everything we do, what we even think, talk, do – all these get recorded somewhere in the cosmos. We call it the Akashic records in sanskrit (all you have to do is Google; now the Akashic have become You tube popular) – a karmic provisional record of all our previous births up until today. I have done many posts on spirituality in the past but I am no more the same person who did them all. Some shift happened in feb/march that I cannot talk about. The process started some two years back when one day I found my spine heating up on meditation to an unbelievable level. The heat spread to my neck and ears. But even before I started on meditation (mantra japa), I have had some coincidences that seemed miraculous. My intuition too proved right in more than one occasion. I dismissed everything trying to explain stuff with logical reasoning as we all do.

Now however the old me is gone. In her place is this new one who is seeing things normally invisible; not in the surface of earth but in the mind, as if I am a third person watching a show that is on; IN SHORT I AM HAVING VISIONS THE MOMENT I CLOSE MY EYES that are normally invisible to naked eye. No x ray machine or metal detector or whatever can even detect an iota of what the awakened people can see. Welcome to the world of REALITY from the make-believe MAYA/ILLUSION that is the material world. If you realize this in your own physical body in your life time, count it as gift.

Why was I even chosen? Here is my take. I am on my regular health pills to keep me alive and on supplements; nothing new or strange; nothing happened all these years; i am not on any stimulant/drug otherwise; i am not dreaming or hallucinating; i am not being hypnotized or mesmerized. I am not lying or exaggerating; I am perfectly sane and healthy and in all my senses. Yet I crossed a mind barrier very recently; i broke through the first glass ceiling that I never believed would be possible for me in my life time; i am by no way Paramahamsa Yogananda or Swami Vivekananda or Ramana Maharishi or even Sri sri Ravishankar ji of present times; I am no Baba or Yogi or even someone following the ‘aachaarams’ and ‘anushtaanams.’ I am a regular housewife, living a loukik life steeped in familial background and responsibilities that come with my position; i am materialistic; i have been ambitious in the physical world wanting this and desiring that; I am someone who has shaken my leg in a couple of girls’ wine parties; i am addicted to shopping; i have been mean and i have hurt people; i have my share of flaws and i am by no means perfect; but I have been an ardent Shakthi devotee for decades now; I was born into/grew up in an overtly pious family; I am obsessed with my pujas; only in America i am missing them for some reasons; here I therefore double my japa (meditation) time. To be fair to myself, i only hurt someone back when i am provoked; people who betrayed trust or sold their soul have had it from me when our paths crossed; otherwise i am a decent soul hahaha; i try to help people and i generally mean well. So I never anticipated this spiritual promotion when I am still in flesh and blood and while still my heart is beating; i have always rated myself as mediocre in every single facet of my life; passable; nothing outstanding or distinguishing; But it looks like the cosmos doesn’t feel the same about me; Obviously i have arrived at the threshold of something deeper and THE ONLY REALITY OF THE WORLD; i know we are all consumed by Maya (the illusion) and we believe in what our 5 senses can experience: seeing, tasting, smelling, hearing and touching. But beyond the senses that are visible and accessible lies the inaccessible, to access which you have to break one by one the bunch of glass ceilings of your own mind space, to finally emerge in the cosmos; to realize what it is to belong with the universal consciousness; i am not saying i am there yet, but i will be working my way through; the tools that have helped me reach this far have been: MY RELENTLESS FAITH IN MY DEITY, MY TOTAL SURRENDER TO MY DIVINE MOTHER and in general in the entire pantheon of Hindu gods, the Sanatana Dharma (Hindu faith), our scriptures, our mantras/tantras, our holy shrines/ancient temples, and in our yogis, rishis, sadhus, GURUS and others, my pujas, my mantra japa (meditation with mantras) and my limited yoga/exercises. I BELIEVE AND I NEVER HAD AN IOTA OF DOUBT WHATSOEVER.

See how many times I am mentioning still I, ME, MINE. I have still not learnt my lessons. However I am a fledgling soul yet and i can make mistakes, can’t I?!

I am penning this post only for the sake of awareness. Be good: think good, talk good and do good. Don’t hurt a soul. No negative energy please. Double your puja efforts, pilgrimages to powerful shrines etc., but more than double your focused meditation. Guided meditation is available online.

Those who don’t have a Guru can just focus on simple meditation techniques like the following.

  • Take deep breath and chant Om in quiet meditative mind for 1 hour repeatedly
  • Chant quietly Om Namashivaya for 1 hour in mind in meditation
  • Chant Ram Ram in meditation
  • Chant Hare Krishna in meditation
  • Om Shakthi Paraa Shakthi in meditative mode

Do this for 1 hour everyday for 3 to 5 years and see the results. Taking a guru for guidance is wisest and advisable. Combining meditation with practice of yoga can yield greater benefits.

I recently read about intelligence in social media. Its stated that its METACOGNITION – in this case, the awareness of the metaphysical that is the supreme intelligence. YOu don’t have to get into a satellite and land in the moon or the Mars. Simply astro travel with your mind! Who says India is poor or illiterate. Do these guys who are our critiques even know what we they are talking about. If Divine Mother bestows the gift of supreme knowledge or conscience of the cosmos upon us, if we are gifted enough for our Kundalini to rise gradually in tandem with our physical/mental strengths, if we are blessed enough for our third eye to open when we are still in this physical body, if its possible for us to see what is NOT evident to our physical naked eye – then it means we have the grace of the universal mother, our Divine Mother; that is what is REAL WEALTH, REAL INTELLIGENCE, REAL PURPOSE OF LIFE. I am repeating here what most Gurus aver: where Quantum physics may end, ADVAITA VEDANTA begins.

I realize how lonely you become at mind level once you reach a certain milestone in your spiritual path. You can barely share things with people because they are not tuned into your frequency. Your own family cannot see or feel what you can sense. People think you may be needing therapy – that is the incredulity that you can’t believe in!

Often our spiritual seniors ask us not to share our experiences, but I also have some evolved & high vibrational souls in my best friends’ circle who share their divine stories with others so that humanity can benefit. I have achieved nothing yet I know, however here I am wanting to encourage every single being I come across TO THINK GOOD, SPEAK GOOD, ACT GOOD AND HAVE THE BEST OF INTENTIONS, ALL THE TIME SPIRITUALLY ROOTED.

I once again recommend a reading of the book ‘The autobiography of a Yogi’ by Shri Paramahamsa Yogananda.

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Review: Yathra Time (You Tube channel)

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Found this on You tube. The hosts are ex comedy actors Kovai Sarala and Lalitha Kumari. Never paid them much attention before this vlog. Surprise content. I may not have been their fan, yet I have noted that even in their comic scenes they displayed kind of character-artiste side of theirs. Lalitha looks so young and refreshing, natural and without glamour. Her sense of dressing is understated elegance. She plays low key, sidestepping to allow her older friend to take the lead most of the times, and refers to Sarala as ‘akka’ – which shows one, the kind of bonding they must be sharing. Girlfriends always relate to each other from heart. These two seem to relax in each other’s company. The comfort factor is evident. There is this hidden side to many of us that not everyone may be aware of. The duo’s spiritual aspirations seem sky high literally! They are climbing peak after Himalayan peak! They pursue their goals with such a passion, as it was with their acting skills. As I grow older I can understand why probably they hit it off together. I am kind of able to gel with only spiritually motivated people nowadays and seem to be losing interest in those who are overtly materialistic. The age difference between these two even explained to me why I am getting along better with spiritually motivated girls who are in early 40s nowadays whereas I find the banal my-age-girls at times boring and uninspiring. Bhog, Yog both are important. With age, the bhog has to grow less and yog has to grow more. I am sick of small talk these days and selfish hypocrites, and want to gyrate away from their world. I am learning to keep my patience and keep my irritation to myself! Quite a tall order!

Anyway I recommend this series. The ladies seem to cover all vital information about the shrines they are visiting. Right now I am tuned in to their Himalaya Shiva Sthalls. Their Nepal travel story has kindled interest in me to follow on their footsteps whenever time and health may permit.

Sometimes who you think are sidekicks could be the real life heroines as Sarala and Lalitha reveal. Their devotion and zeal seem to be inspiring. Their bhakthi and energy levels are motivating. I wish these two ladies long, healthy and happy life and the joy of eternal friendship. Never so far wanted to meet any star in my life but if I get a chance to chat up these ladies, I would want to listen to their spiritual experiences. I bet they feel stronger spiritual vibes and are elevated souls already.