Was at my friend’s place for 3 days. Yesterday was granddaughter’s birthday. My friends called me to Maha Prathyangira temple in Sholinganallur. As it houses Varahi, I was all the more thrilled. Never planned this temple visit. It just fell on my lap. It was clear, I got the call. Performed archana in this famous temple for both Prathyangira mata and Varahi mata. Then we went to Badra Kali’s sannidhanam. My friends and I sat in the front of the deity but at a distance, a little away from the sanctum. I recited aloud the short Durga Sapthashloki from Devi Mahatmyam. Then within my mind I chanted the Kali Gayathri 5 times and closed my eyes. My vision immediately filled with burning fire like scene and then it dissolved to a white snow like lingam small in size. Then out of nowhere emerged Kali Mata, tall and huge like some 2 storeys tall, with her tongue out. Normally, had I not been a Shakthi Upasaki or even after being one just a month or so back, I would have gotten scared. This time with Ma in pitch black and with her eyes gleaming, I had no fear in me. I know and have been told She is such a lovely energy. I lapped up Her into my system that’s all. I know I am one in a million to be shown Her divine grace like this. I thanked Her for Her benevolence because I always think I lack depth in bhakthi, i am not that devoted, and I am not the perfect upasaki or whatever. Yet She graced me with Her supreme darshan. It lasted for about a minute and I got a closeup too. I asked for Her forgiveness for the mistakes and sins I have committed knowingly and unknowingly. I asked Her to give Her blessings to one and all, not just to my family. She knows yet I told Her it was my granddaughter’s birthday and the day before was my son’s and asked Her for Her blessings. I thanked Her again for Her divine Grace. I really didn’t even know whether I deserved it or not. Anyway She knows better and She has access to my Karmic records. I came out of the moment. I shared the experience with my friends who are very pious and who believe in me and who never doubted a word of what I told them. I am glad to have them in my life. Not a sarcastic comment or cracking jokes or poking fun.
I sent a message to my Guru. NO I HAVE NOT DONE KALI SADHANA. I am though a Shakthi Upasaki.
I shared the experience with one more high vibrational friend who also has been having divine darshans for years now. She encouraged me and asked me to enjoy the divine experiences and asked me to share them with only true believers. Another friend asked me to record it to posterity. Many Upasakas coming in the future may want to know and they must have the benefit, she said. So I have decided to selectively record here some of my Divine experiences.
These experiences of mine are not faked; they are not a lie; they are not my hallucination; they are not my dreams; i am not under any medication other than regular ones for my lifestyle conditions; these are REAL ACTUAL VISIONS that I am having. I have no need to convince anyone of anything. I leave it to people to believe what they want to.
My ‘awakening’ began slowly in January itself in Doha. I realized it only as it came out fully in the open by february- march in Arizona, US. I am back in India now. The awakening has a profound effect on me that I cannot describe to anyone.
Kodi Pranaams to Ma Lalitha for choosing me in this noble mission in this janam of mine. Again I don’t even know whether I deserve this spiritual promotion. I never thought much about my bhakthi or whatever. It feels strange belonging with the cosmos. I am just taking my baby steps right now.
Closing this post with Devi Aparadha Kshamapana stotra by shri Adi Shankara – looks like he composed it just for me.
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