One thing I am learning; YOU CANNOT RETRACE YOUR STEPS BACK TO NORMAL/PREVIOUS LIFE OF YOURS ONCE YOU ARE AWAKENED! Sometimes I miss that normal happy-go-lucky life of mine that evaporated just like that overnight with my third eye springing open. Not that I am ungrateful for the gift I have received from Divine Mother. Nostalgia for good old carefree times that’s all. Now I am aware I have immense responsibility on my shoulders. I have to take care.
Pleasantly surprised to discover that a few awakened SRI VIDYA souls who i have followed/listened to in You tube (who all I consider my gurus too) are visiting me (astro travel) in my home, in my visions. Not only them, other awakened souls too who I can reckon vaguely who are not into Sri Vidya Upasana or are not masters/gurus also have been spotted by me but I can’t exactly place everyone. A few white faces (!) too surface in my visions. I can aver this much: my understanding of this on talking about this matter with some high vibrational awakened souls is that, I have probably upgraded! Not only that, an unexpected living soul (sukshma atma or the subtle body may be) came visiting me twice. (I did not see this person in dream; i saw him in VISION in my home, probably visiting me!) That means, the subtle body/soul is leaving this person and visiting me during his sleep (in his dream) of which he may not be aware of (these are the dreams we cannot recollect) ! It means I am high on this person’s thoughts! I am saying this to show how my own understanding of the ways of sukshma atma (the subtle soul/body) is improving with these visions.
(Refer: Yogananda Paramahamsa’s book “Autobiography of a Yogi.’ Every soul/atma has 3 bodies: THE GROSS BODY (our physical body on earth) (what we call Stoola Shareer) and then the SUBTLE BODY the Sukshma Atma/Shareer (that can leave our body and roam like we do in dreams) and then finally the highly curated version called the CAUSAL BODY or the Kaarana Shareer) that will dissolve finally into the Universal/Collective Consciousness.) (like it may take some 10000 years for a soul to progress from amoeba life to this kaarana shareer level passing through some 84000 wombs of different lifecycles/species before reaching the human stage).
I have nearly had vision of all the deities whose mantras I chant at least once. Last to arrive has been Maha Vishnu. Enlightened souls may dismiss this as distractions. We have to rise over and above the deity darshan stage, I completely agree with their wisdom. Working on that. One step at a time. I am experiencing the initial euphoria that I guess must be natural. I will grow out of this phase.
NEGATIVITY SPOTTER: Immediately spot the negativity in homes ever since awakening. But I keep my mouth shut so as not to alarm the residents.
I don’t know – all this is since March month only although the process of my awakening started way back in November 2025 itself in Doha, where we were longtime residents. It bloomed out one fine day in Arizona, US this March 2026 as I awakened with such an intensity in my son’s home that I wanted to return to India immediately so as not to scare him! Baffled for last few months, now I realize what a gift Ma Lalitha Tripura Sundari, my beloved Divine Mother has bestowed upon me – for I never thought I was the perfect person to earn this prize from her. In fact a few happen to think that I either lie or that I don’t deserve this awakening. Crossing a tumultuous period in my life – spiritually. To what extent my Devtas have gone out of their way to show me love and reaffirm to me that they are with me in this journey touches my heart. Universal Mother for a reason!
Finally, all this is possible because of my principal gurus who I hold in deepest gratitude. I will never forget their blessings and their valuable teachings and their strict discipline. I will keep holding in reverence my principal Paramaguru and Parameshti guru for life. My sincere pranaams to the guru paramparas of India without who India may not be so blessed. They are taking forward a spiritual tradition that shuns materialism and promotes the evolution of the soul from lowest rungs to highest levels. A quiet and peaceful revolution is on for millennia in this country. I am grateful I am born a Hindu in this Bharathiya nation that made me access the Gurus and Gurutvaa with much ease. Forever I will remain grateful to my principal gurus without who I could not have come even this far. Of course I am still a KG entrant. I have a long way to go and graduate. Looking forward to continuing my spiritual journey with all optimism and eagerness with Ma Lalitha Maha Tripura Sundari leading me by my hand..
All the best to all sincere seekers. We don’t know when we will cross over to the 4th dimension.
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