Awakening is just the first step I know. But novices can be forgiven their initial euphoria/excitement for cracking into even this basic stage. Enlightenment is at the head of the stairs. Just looking up ahead can dizzy you. But lets take one day at a time. Let it take eons, many births, multi janams. I am not bothered. Earlier I used to seek liberation from the birth cycle in my prayers. Now I am in total surrender. Let me be played the way Divine Mother wants to play Her game of Maya! Let Her have some fun at my expense! Just in case She must think, I have had enough, then fine! May be She has played me maximum already that She thinks I need to be rested! She may just pull me off my Karmic cycle liberating my poor soul once and for all in which case I would count myselt luckiest. What better spot to rest than under the lotus feet of the Divine Mother. Again this ‘I’ props up! Anyway, can’t help it. So that’s how I view my spiritual journey now. I want to go with the flow. What I am experiencing day in and day out I cannot even attempt to make people understand. But I hope with each passing day I am marking some advancement along the long, winding path. The improvement may not be visible in a short time, but may become more apparent with time. Om Shri Matre Namaha! All glories to the Universal Divine Mother!